When you have nothing to say...!!!

Hm,

What do you do when you know its about time you wrote something, but have absolutely no idea what to write about? I don't know what you'd do but, me? I contemplate on what to write, until I get and idea. But on occassions like today, when its just impossible to ignore the urge to write, and no matter how much I try, I can't think of something to write about, I just grab the keyboard and start pouring out the words that come into my mind.

But there is a big question of why. Why am I writing when I have nothing to say? Why am I writing when there is so little revolving around my life? If you think I am going to answer them, well, sorry to dissappoint you. I don't know the answer myself. I just had the urge to grab the keyboard and fire away.

The most important thing thats been happening around me here would be the protests. The daily show of voilence and atrocities. The so-called provocation of security troops by so-called vandals who, in-turn, are provocated by so-called vigilante groups. But do I believe in all this? Do I believe in all the voilence? Do I believe that voilence will end sometime soon? I must say no. For the time being, at least, I believe in nothing thats going on here. I don't believe this government will be willing to resolve this conflict peacefully, nor do I believe that the protestors are willing to back down without a fight. I believe that the government is wrong on ignoring such mass demonstration. I believe that the leaders are wrong in giving mixed signals while not coming out in the open. I believe that the demonstrators are wrong in forcing everyone to support them. I don't believe vandals can be stopped, though. Afterall they are vandals. Their only aim is to destroy property thats not theirs and create as much chaos as possible. I believe protestors must identify the vandals and kick them out of their agenda.

Recenlty there's this thing going on, the indicative strike at bank. I do not work in the mainstream business of this bank. My entire job description is directed towards serving those who handle the mainstream business. There's a team who think I must stop all my work, but if I stop all my work, they complain their email and communcation is not working. Because that is my job. They won't work if I don't do my job. So they want those services to work, but not me. Hm, I'd like the idea, all my job gets done and nobody has to do anything.

But then, thats all politics. I am not just about politics! I am not just about my belief. I have a life of my own, that revolves around completely different things, different people, different environment. I have friends and family to spend time with, and I have my trusty old computer to kill time. Unfortunately though, I haven't seen much of friends these past few weeks. That means I have saved a lot on my shopping spree (I have so much to buy - DVDs, magazines, chocolates, to list a few). But that also means I had a lot more time to kill. So for the whole of week end, I was busy killing people, in computer that is. Two days of virtual rampage in Grand Theft Auto: San Andreas. Its a fun game, but unfortunately it gave me an eye problem, and a bit of headache. And oh yes, that reminds me... my HDD crashed. I was very fortunate that I have a second hard disk, and the HDD crashed just after finishing backing it up. That was a very great timing. That disk died just after about 5 minutes of finishing backup. So I lost nothing except a SR71. Couldn't have had it anyway, as I deleted its installer. anyway, I might be able to salvage it.

I think I have gone haywire now. This is one of those posts that came straight from my mind, and I do not intend to review it. (Its 5:20, I must be home in next 10 minutes and It takes me 30 minutes to walk home). I am sure this is one of my worst posts. So ... sorry.